Friday, 23 December 2011


dark valley over here
there's a mountain hiding the sun
even there's no river nor lake for water...
thus no cloud could be seen
dark and cold

but i enjoy what reality had made for this valley..
i know it would be harmful if i climb up the mountain...
and see the other side of world
i enjoy the pain made by this coldness
eventually it is still less painful rather than if i move out from this valley

i doubt my sapienity
too much love...beauty in this world...eventually kills me
every breath i take....every second i die
i love this valley....
not every happiness is called happiness
even i have to walk on thorns 
the thing is....i'm still alive
and that's enough...
everyday i wake up in the morning and alive
and to be silent from millions of sentences..
 God knows everything about me...hears every whisper of my soul...
even hell breaks like Big Bang theory....
God always love me....
that's enough pocket money to survive here...


i love this valley....
somehow certain catastrophy can't be controlled
even tornadoes get angry at two poles of the earth
like my friend said...
"if u can't avoid it...just enjoy it"
^__^

i love this valley....
in the end of day......
Alhamdulillah....thank you Allah...
for still here with me....
for still accept me even i choose to be abstract rather than concrete
for being the One... i shared all of my secrets....
for being the Best listener...
:)







Tuesday, 13 December 2011

its ok..



in the end of the day...
always say to myself...its ok...i still have another day tomorrow..



=)

Friday, 9 December 2011

perhaps


the closest arrow can be the most painful
feel it in either direction
worst case scenario
:|




Thursday, 1 December 2011

tick tock


everyday i make mistakes
and everyday i repent
everyday i fight
everyday i fail
then i fight again...

but i miss one thing

i forgot to move on
 
and i realized that since i felt the world can't wait for me anymore

the only only only one that i can do right now

MOVE ON!
 
 
 




Tuesday, 29 November 2011

zam zam...alakazam..


"eyh aladdin...ko buat apa dengan penyapu tu?"

"erm...aku nak pukoi karpet aku nih...berhabuk...kotoq sikit...semalam aku pi jalan2 satu dunia...naik karpet terbang aku ni..."

"eyh...kuat nya pukoi...lunyai abeh karpet hang nanti..."

"hai...takpa jah...kena lah pukoi kuat sikit...kotoq sangat nih...bagi tercabut suma bacteria...virus...habuk2 padang pasiaq suma..."

...........................................................

sekitar kawasan istanbul @ sungai petani...jerebu...
akibat debu2 yang bertebaran dek pukulan aladdin terhadap karpet terbangnya...
...........................................................................

"amboi....karpet baru ke din...(aladdin)...?"

"eeyhh..awat lak hang habaq camtu...ni karpet lama la..."

"amboi...awat nampak baru jah..."

=)
............................
kita manusia biasa.....kalau diuji....mestilah sakit....
macam kena hentam ngan penyapu...malah lagi teruk dari tu...
tapi...
kalau kita fikir balik hikmah sebalik apa yang dah jadi....
ya Allah.....manisnya....(bukan nak poyo..tp betol kot)
macam kita pukul karpet kuat2....bukan sebab kita x sayang karpet tu...
cuma nak bagi dia bersih...x berdebu lagi...
lagi kuat kita pukul...lagi banyak debu jatuh...

same goes to Allah...
sebab sayang Dia kat kita sayang yang sangat2...
lagi intense dugaan tu....lagi manis hikmah dia...
Dia bukan saja2....Dia nak kita bersih...one way getting closer to Him...

yaaaa..everything is just so easy to say...
but well...nama pun manusia...
tadi aku baru je blow2 sana sini x de sebab...
tapi...

aku lupa....

kenapa nak marah....sayang Allah kat kita sesaat pun x pernah pudar...

:)


credit to my beloved housemee



..............




Saturday, 26 November 2011

1433 :)

 
wahai tuhan kami, segala apa yg telah kami kerjakan selama tahun ini, dari apa yg menjadi laranganMu, sedang kami belum bertaubat, padahal Engkau tidak melupakannya dan Engkau tidak redha denganya yang sesungguhnya Engkau berkuasa memberikan siksa untuk kami, dan Engkau mengajak kami untuk bertaubat sesudah melakukan maksiat. kerana itu ya Allah, kami mohon keampunanMu dan berilah keampunan kepada kami dengan kemurahanMu..
amin 


Thursday, 24 November 2011

jentayu

 
 
Patah sayap bertongkat paruh
Patah paruh bertongkat siku
Patah siku bertongkat dagu
Patah dagu bertongkat kuku

because we are women...
=)

Tuesday, 22 November 2011

the sky not taken


depends on how i let the life takes its course
depends on how much strength i have to make some ejection systole...erkk
hhhmmm....

=.="

zzzzZzZzZZzzzz......

Monday, 21 November 2011

terriblo!


bangun-bangun je rase sakit....
sakit situ sakit sini....

@,@

patutlaaaaa....
*farhanah mohamad ni dah lama x sentuh buku*
kesian tau otak...dah lama x makan pape....

T , T

ok...otak....meh i suap u arini...sikit pun jadilah...

=,=*

(sapela ajar check BP pakai bell??)

*sigh*

memang sah2 x cukup makan...

ang!!





Thursday, 17 November 2011

mana dia pergi....


bila angin menyentuh muka....kemudian sampai mata aku tertutup dengan sendiri...
leka seketika melayan perasaan waktu angin makin menderu...
dalam tram...atau sewaktu berjalan kaki...mahupun ketika aku terkena tempias lumpur hujan pagi tadi...
dulu....
waktu jalan-jalan dekat tepian....rasa macam semua angin yang bertiup tu...sama je...
semua angin sejuk...
semua angin best...
hari-hari pun sama....bila angin bertiup...terasa dunia ini statik seketika
tapi sekarang lain...
suatu hari...aku jalan-jalan....keluar nak menikmati angin yang seringkali jadi kegemaran aku
entah kenapa....harini aku rasa kelainan yang amat....
angin yang bertiup harini tak sama dengan yang semalam...
ada satu perasaan yang lain....tak sesejuk dan sedingin semalam...
rindu perasaan semalam....rindu yang sangat....

..........................

baru harini aku belajar 
hidup ibarat angin 
ia datang dan pergi kemana pun ia mahu...
tak kira sejauh mana aku berjalan untuk cari kembali perasaan yang aku rasa semalam...
angin yang bila bertiup...menyapa bahu......sehingga mataku terpejam....dah tiada...
dan harini aku mencari lagi.....
angin yang sejuk dan menenangkan tu.....dah jauh....tinggalkan aku

baru harini aku belajar
belajar menerima kenyataan....belajar untuk kuat....belajar untuk tidak mengharap...
sebab angin yang aku rindu....tak kan datang balik menyapa...
belajar untuk tenang.....belajar untuk hidup
belajar untuk yakin.....

dan aku tunggu saat seperti dulu....waktu angin datang menyapa...mataku terpejam dan aku tersenyum...
..........

dan setiap hari adalah peluang yang aku tak kan lepaskan....
menunggu angin yang cukup kuat untuk bawa aku terbang
=)

.............................................

dan setiap hari aku berharap.....lilin yang sudah sekian lama aku nyalakan ni....bertahan...biarlah hanya untuk sesaat lagi....sebelum ia terpadam dengan sendirinya...





Friday, 11 November 2011

i will


i'll change everything 
until i hardly remember the last summer
i'll run faster
until i can be away from my shadow
i'll close the window
so that i can miss the stars
i'll low down the stereo
so i can hear my own heartbeat and follow it
i'll burn the candle
until i can take away this coldness
i'll climb the hills
until i fall again then climb again...

its ok...

because i'll get through this no matter what the price is..

i'll get through this

=)

Thursday, 10 November 2011

............


this song remember me of someone..
.........................................

sayu ku terpisah  
hikayat indah kini hanya tinggal sejarah 
hembus angin rindu begitu nyaman 
kerinduan niat kasihmu 
hujan lebat mencurah kini bagaikan tiada henti 
kaulah lagu kau irama terindah 
tak lagi ku dengari 
kau pergi..  
sepi tanpa kata terdiam dan kaku
tak daya ku kau lupa  
apapun kata mereka 
biarkan kenangan berbunga di ranting usia  

..................................
i miss you







Sunday, 6 November 2011

wink at a small faults


"fold two hands together and express a dash of sorrow
marinate it overnight and work on it tomorrow"
........................

sometimes i feel that it's easier to ask for an apology....rather than to forgive...

...........................

The Owner Of Universe......who am i to not to forgive....who am i to "pay back" to the person who wronged me...who am i....

astaghfirullah...






Thursday, 3 November 2011

Saturday, 29 October 2011

vide up


learn to keep
learn to accept
learn to give
learn to fight
learn to endure
learn to hide

because it takes the  hardest stony path to be called a woman

Tuesday, 18 October 2011

...................


i want to go to.... the warmest place in the world
i need to be like.... a want to be....erm...back home...
home....yes..go back home....
where i don't have to hide anything
where the people are  parts of me
where i can find my components
where i can shout and cry as much as i can
where i can play hide and seek...and laugh together
where my heart are easily heard
where i can lean my head on
where i can pillow fights and smash them on the wall..but we love each other
where i can be understood...and somehow understand
where i can wake up early in the morning...touch those cool dew...and see greeniessss everywhere
where i have the rights in life...
where i deserve to be happy

wanna go home.....

T , T

Friday, 14 October 2011

17 times a day

 
  Rabbighfirlii  (Tuhanku, ampuni aku)
  Warhamnii  (Rahmati aku)
Wajburnii  (Tutuplah aib-aibku)
  Warfa’nii  (Angkatlah darjatku) 
Warzuqnii  (Berilah aku rezeki)
  Wahdinii  (Berilah aku petunjuk)
  Wa’Aafinii  (Sihatkan aku)
  Wa’fuannii  (Maafkan aku)
 ........ 
 
^_^
 

Thursday, 13 October 2011

my sweet first week =)


i've waited for three years for this moment....
t 1/2 of my happiness is never this long
love my clinical year so much

=)

get alive!
 

 adapt or die...


Tuesday, 11 October 2011

Sunday, 9 October 2011

sikap hati yang "mahu"


panas jadi sejuk
susah jadi senang
jauh jadi dekat
lapar jadi kenyang
nak tido pun x jadi gak...
luka pun cepat sembuh(sbb pakai aloe vera hur )
sebab hati dah mahu....apa lah yang jasad boleh sangkal lagi..

 :">

.:nak seribu jalan...x nak seribu dalih:.

 
 
p/s:credit to miss N


Friday, 7 October 2011

i'll roll the drum by myself =)


"erm...***** boleh la..dia pandai..aku ni...T , T"

"eee...tension ar...sal aku bodoh sangat ea..T , T"

"x yah la gila2 sgt study...kompem x leh jd cam *****....T , T"

haha...and ade banyak lagi....

appreciating value of life...lol...and this one for myself..peringatan untuk diri sendiri...
every person is born with pride...but why...me myself...nak menjatuhkan pride diri sendiri by saying those "flaccid rotten apple" words...hhmm...enough for not being fair to myself....OMG...kejam terhadap diri sendiri...wasting time by thinking unrealistic nonsense stuff...why not i press the reset button..yaaa....
then..start again by mencintai diri sendiri sedalam-dalamnya...
at a time... i'm happy because people make me happy...but why not this time....me myself make myself happy...by myself(opss..redundency..)

this one sounds little bit cliche...but who cares...


Monday, 3 October 2011

sudah berapa kali gua mau cakap.....


"ditelan mati anak..diluah mati bapak"

uisyh..entahlah...betol ke x peribahasa yg aku letak tu..hentam je..
ya Allah...belum lagi jejak kuliah nih...
dah langgar something...adeyh...

"stupid is defined as making same mistakes repetitively"
erkk..ok...
chaiyok farhanah...bertahan2!!
be strong....sikit je lagi.....
hentikan pembaziran....*wink*

omo!

 gua sudah ingat satu ni....

"kalau takut dilambung ombak...jangan berumah di tepi pantai"

haaa...ni baru betul

=)

gambar hiasan*
p/s:omo!..puas cari peribahasa yang sesuai..=p

message from pluto to saturn


bon voyage miss N...
have a safest journey k...
can't wait laaa...

-gidari-

zZZZZZzzzzZzzzz..krroohhHhh..KROhHhhh....kROOOhhHH

Thursday, 4 August 2011

tunggu sekejap...


"Tunggu sekejap wahai kasih,
Tunggulah sampai hujan teduh,
Mari ku dendang,
Jangan mengenang orang jauh,
Jangan pula,
Jangan tinggalkan daku seorang,
Tunggu sekejap kasih,
Tunggu…"
haha...nice one after moreh...
 =)
general dedication
1001 in a night..

"tunggu sekejap....."
owh my God....next week is my flight...
felt like just yesterday was my last final paper
x sedar pon dah 8 hari berlalu..
masa pergi terlalu cepat...bak kata orang...sekali angin bayu bertiup...ia datang dan pergi begitu saja..
eceh..sastera la pulak...:p
belum tinggalkan alex...dah rasa penangan rindu yang bukan main lagi bila sampai malaysia nanti...
mana x nyer....(jap...nak bukak diari balik)....
nak2 lagi bila tinggalkan alex time2 ramadhan camni...
lagi la ...
aritu gi carefour...terpaksa tinggalkan troli...keluar cepat2 sebelum ada yg hypoxia ...
seronok betol tengok orang ramai2 camni...

kering~
.................................
yang paling exciting...the best taraweh i'd experienced is....

=)
yela...belum ade rezeki nak rase taraweh kat mekah...kat sini pon jadi lah..
jemaah sampai beribu2....perghh..feeling abes...

selesai2 je...sempat lak camwhoring jap...atas alasan nak tunggu tram..(ceh..padahal tram x yah tunggu pon..ade je sepanjang mase) :p


balik taraweh....terus cari mangsa..i mean makanan....
sape2 volunteer nak masakkan...sila2 la...
masuk2 bilik sebelah...nampak ade satu buku best...*aku terima nikahnya*
erk..buku apa ni?nak usha segan la pulak...LOL..
yela...aku kan under age lagi...baru 17...
selak2 sikit...wow....terpegun la jugak dengan nukilan pemilik blog saiful islam ni...
dia macam chicken soup for the soul versi bahasa melayu
so.....
- pinjam jap ea-
..........................................................
badan dah makan....jangan lupa lepas tu rohani pon nak makan gak ye...hehe
nice curtain fall for my third year insyaAllah...
just...kali ni lain dari tahun-tahun yang lain...
for everything that happened to me this year...
bring me lots of tears...laugh...love..friendship....
and till now i can't stop smiling
life is too short to get bored...
:x

"tunggu sekejap....."
ops...bila orang di sana dah call....
along..kenapa balik lambat sangat...kat sini ustaz kushairi jadi imam pon best jugak kot
LOL
haha...ternyata itu adalah panggilan....WOI..BALIK CEPAT LAH..APALAH YANG KO BUAT LAMA2 SANGAT KAT ALEX TU...KERUSI MEJA MAKAN ADE SATU KOSONG...
=)
ok2...insyaAllah..by next thursday..i'll be back home...
yeay...dah lama x bertepuk tampar sepak belasah mereka yang tersayang...
adeyh...mouwafak x pegi lagi...:p
i miss you guys too....

"tunggu sekejap..."
berapa banyak tunggu daaa
haha...tp tunggu yang ni pulak....
Dia je yang Maha Mengetahui...
but what can i do...
i just could ask for him from Him...
=)

p/s:aku rase aku senanye nak tulis bnda lain td...ok...happy ramadhan to me and be happy...

.......................................................

-hujan masih renyai-







Monday, 1 August 2011

what was mine # 2


i woke up this morning
"eyh...mana ni....eyh..eyh........."
ok..dah jumpa...buat cuak je  =p
ade je kat ruang belah kiri....it's still working...still pumping fresh blood
.:beautiful:.

even it is not right...it tells the truth

p/s:nothing's related...it is just an anatomical position =)

Sunday, 31 July 2011

what was mine


when i keep saying that i didn't keep anything 
i lied
..................................................
it's either i forget to forgive or i forgive but i forget
time will heals the wounds
help me ya Allah.....

help me to say NO when it's wrong and YES when it's right

p/s:too much lies are unhealthy =(

Wednesday, 20 July 2011

juste milieu


when the road has been too long..
 
 
just remember in the winter
far beneath the bitter snow
lies the seed that with the sun's love
in the spring becomes...
 
-the rose-

Friday, 15 July 2011

must reach that hive


.:betrayal:.


not enough

still not enough
-next time i'll try harder-

p/s:sorry...



Sunday, 3 July 2011

tell me more


i guess fairy tales ain't for miss Alice specifically...
it's mine too 
.:dream:.
which is my "i can't wait part" of the day
where i can do anything whatever whenever i want
as if i can rule my own path with my own "enigma"
.:dream:.

hello there.....
my "i won't cry and i'll be wonderful"  place 
the place that i won't say " i hate you"..haha



when the sun hide its face again...
and this is the most "i'm happy to be here" part of the day 

.:i don't need any bedtime story to fall asleep anymore:.
=)







Saturday, 2 July 2011

from butter to cookies


keep it real



1000 miles in one night

they slept but they didn't

1000 hidden paths in one scroll

they're vain but they don't 

how far they go.....keep it 37

=)








Tuesday, 28 June 2011

exam sugar~


common iliac artery...........



pesanan:lain kali jangan naik texi sorang2



~ngeh3~

haha...no idea lah....btw...goodluck for final exam....*rawr*





Monday, 27 June 2011

enam kesemuanya.............. T , T


satu..dua...tiga...empat...lima..enam...


 satu...dua...tiga...empat...lima..enam...

ye..kira beberapa kali...tetap enam kesemuanya...

yeay!!enam!!



Wednesday, 22 June 2011

endurable july



farhanah mohamad.....do you know....?

so....


insyaAllah.....



by the way......


 and one day....


FEEL THE BEATS....EXAM FEVER <3

Wednesday, 15 June 2011

espero

it's not easy to climb the wall.....
even sometimes i feel like i'm almost there...well i'm actually not
even sometimes ....what i can do is just draw some balloons on the wall...
but reality...it is just on that wall....
but eventually

patience is the bridge...

and one day...i know that...no need for me to climb the wall to blow the balloons...up high to the sky...
and for the time being...
i'll wait...


Thursday, 9 June 2011

fortify your army


soar high...roar loud

be a bird with super great broad wings

have a dream,have an aim.....and run for it =)

start fortifying your army right now

warssss are around the corner

shine your sword and bring it on!!

((((((all the best))))))

p/s:meet you at the battlefield






Saturday, 28 May 2011

move!


dalaman tubuh badan manusia bukan satu titik statik
manusia ada darah dan darah itu mengalir
dan tak semua perhentian aliran darah itu sama
pada pukul 3 a.m darah itu sedang mengalir di bahagian tengah pangkal otak
pada pukul 3 p.m pula darah yang sama sedang mengalir di bahagian buah pinggang..
ditapis...atau dilupuskan atau diperbaharukan





...............................................

just like our lives
it's a circle
everything ain't stationary
everything is going fast forward
everything demands for the best
after another day comes another day...
if you feel bad at 3 a.m today...just wait for 3 a.m another day
life doesn't stop here...life is a momentum
life is about kinetics
if you can't afford a smile today
if you can't stand up straight today
if you can't strut even for some steps today
its ok...
there will be TOMMORROW for you
because remember...
misery is only an option
so...
JUST CHOOSE TO BE HAPPY

just..

MOVE!!!

p/s:whatever it is...come back to Him


Thursday, 26 May 2011

thank you kawan...


"i have found the paradox
that if you love until it hurts,
there can be no more hurt,
only more love"

p/s:depends..

Saturday, 30 April 2011

outer space....please



bring me to outer space....space...because those trashes can't be degraded by the earth

p/s: its ok..kalau itu yang terbaik..

Sunday, 27 March 2011

ada apa dengan ikan



menjala ikan di laut
bukan senang...
kadang2 jala sampai terkoyak2...pastu jahit balik..
suatu hari nelayan berhenti di satu tepian..
berfikir....

satu hari nelayan tak pergi ke laut
katanya tak mahu menjala lagi
letih~

si anak bertanya kepada ayahnya..
kenapa berhenti menjala ikan....?
kata ayahnya.....

"tiada dalam hasil tangkapannya...ikan yang dicari selama ini"

kemana ikan yang dicari...

........................................................................

nelayan tak turun laut lagi...
duduk di darat...bawa diri dengan kaki sendiri...
tak mahu mendayung lagi....

berjalan.....berjalan .....terus berjalan...

tak mahu cari ikan tu lagi....

-malam-

flying leaves


dah x perlu kot...rasanyer..

=)

p/s:shredded bones ...regrow

Wednesday, 23 March 2011

bee-care-fool


i'm walking just on the edge

slippery..but don't mind

i'm holding a rope

sretttsrretttsrettttt............................

slowly...carefully....

get those two flags at the end of the wall

watchhaaa!!!

Monday, 21 March 2011

antivirus


boom!

system down lagey...

naik kapal terbang.....net net net...system down tiba-tiba

sebelum tu..kat klia dah jadi benda yang sama...

turun depan bibliotheca...tenenet....tenenet...

/\/\___/\/\/\/\_____/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\________________

system down lagi hari nih....

virus yang lain menyerang2.....hampir terpadam....

dush!!

satu hentakan kuat....

/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\________________

serangan makin mantap.....

pop!!!!

*my antivirus .................expired*

hari ke hari...ke hari yang lain.....memang macam dah kena sangat format nih....

banyak sangat virus nih....

zzZzZzZZZzzzz....



p/s:pinjam jap awak punya ecg ye hur.....





Saturday, 19 March 2011

on the globe



me and my shadow

nothing else~

the falcon and those resistance

nothing else~

ruby on the sword

nothing else~


check!

just what i need to fill in the blanks



Thursday, 10 March 2011

youth~


life.talking.climbing.study.memorizing.pain.emotion.forgetting.redo.hormone.trials.failure.success.sweet.childhood.swings.seesaw.tragedy.tears.yawn.down.up.puppy.love.experience.perseverance.motivation.friends.laughter.medicine.growing.hurt.misery.happiness.rebound.reflux.hahaha!!!


wait a minute...something is missing....hhhmmm.......








hhhmmm.....








...................................................................









Monday, 28 February 2011

Wednesday, 23 February 2011

honeymoon


dear farhanah......

"bulan madu di awan biru...tiada yang menganggu...bulan madu dia atas pelangi...hanya kita berdua"

PALE OTAK DIA..

p/s:no offense ea amy search..peace no war..hak3

.........................................

honeymoon.....dah kata honey tu kompem2 ar manis kan..
tp, kat sini bila lama sangat lam mulut tu...lama2 baru rasa pahit yang tak terkata...
yang aku maksudkan honeymoon year.....
uisyh...terlupa aku seketika....lupa lak aku nih dak medic..satu hari nyawa orang depends on aku...isyh3..besar gak tanggungjawab aku tu...
start2 lepas spm...rasa hidup terlalu selesa...x de kongkongan...bebas...inilah yang aku maksudkan ngan honeymoon year...
bila aku rasa terlalu selesa...sebenarnya aku lam code blue kot!
bahaya seh...sampai terlupa matlamat idop nih...
isyh3..bese la manusia kan...
terleka tu mmg normal la...kalau awek2 cun kat sban pakai anting2 hello kitty ke apa ke...
aku rasa aku lak ....seakan2 setan yang jd earings aku...bisik2 kat aku...bg aku lupa tentang norma hidup yg actually seactuallynyer...

hhhmmm...kiranya aku nih kurang sgt terdedah pada masyarakat luar...bila dah nampak depan mata...baru nak terkejot...
aritu ....ade satu aritu aku teman adik aku gi hospital....sakit apa ntah aku dah lupa
bila pk2 balik....seolah2 dunia yang aku idop skang ni betol2 khayalan semata2...
realiti lagi sakit derrr!!
payah nyer nak jd sorang doctor tu Allah je tau...mmg ar hur dah citer kat aku life HO kat tempat yg dia wat attachment aritu...tp bila aku dah tengok ngan biji mata aku sendiri....ade lak yg HO nanges2 kena marah...tegak bulu roma aku...rasa cam x nak idop lak...nak quit pon ade...tp,mana leh....ni impian aku sejak aku leh mmbaca lagi....born to save lives~
ade abang HO ckp kat blog dia...kalau rasa nak give up...pandang langit..hehe..x pe2..nanti aku try...
bukan menyesal ngan idop aku...tp ade la sikit rasa betapa aku ni dah sia2kan life aku sepanjang aku dalam honeymoon year nih...yela,bila dah jauh dari mak bapak...lupa jap ...rasa nak bebas 24 jam...
tp kan...nasib baik x terlambat lg...ade baki lagi 3 1/2 tahun lg nak baiki sume benda...so...damage controlled~
so,lepas kejadian curfew2 sume ni..ade gak la rasa keinsafan kat situ...build balik matlamat hidup...jadi doctor bukan senang...kena devote betol2 ....sacrifice everything from begining...from the start...and from now on...(sorry la..aku lambat sedar)
hhhmmm...puas sudah berenjoyan dalam theoritical year nih...x lama lg nak berpracticalan pulak...dak kecik x layak masuk practical year...so,nak x nak kenalah berubah jd dewasa...
accept and adapt...
skang ni x leh nak down sgt ngan bnda2 yg remeh...sebab ade lagi bnda yang supergiant yang tgh tunggu kita...aku ckp macam bagus,tp iA adenyer doa ibu bapa n kawan2...setiap kali aku try repent...
hhhmmm....then...alia pernah nasihat aku...life ni bla bla bla...so...kita put away unecessary luggage aside...mmg ar simple je word dia...tp mendalam sgt bg aku...sebab ngan kata2 tu aku leh out from my second year dengan baik (walaupun x cemerlang pon)...
yup...betol tu alia...life ni kan journey...kalau semu bnda kita nak bawa sekali lam otak kita ni...berat la pulak..overload susah~
hampir 3 tahun dok kat negara org...aku tengok ramai kawan2 aku dah berubah.....ke arah yang sgt2 baik...apa rahsia derang....senang je...belajar untuk bear responsibilities...itu yang buat derang become sgt2 matang....mmg layak la nak panggil bakal doctor...
every second dimanfaatkan dengan tanggungjawab...ya Allah..aku tabik abeh ngan derang2 ni...
mak aku pernah cakap...org enjoy ngan cara masing2....kalau study tu pon....kira enjoy gak...pastu..plus dapat pahala lak...waaaa...best2...kiranya....konon cam org pandang golongan2 cam mereka2 yg berusaha keras ni macam x de life....lame...and terkongkong....isyh3...salah kot....sebenarnya....org yg ckp cmtu yang x de life...ade life pon tp di sia sia kan...isyh3...sian2...
again...aku tabik la mereka2 yang ade usaha nak mematangkan diri masing2 untuk bergelar doktor satu hari nanti...tabik3...
hhhmmm.....kat otak ni...kena selalu diingatkan....satu hari bakal nanges2 macam HO aritu...hehe...so,dah sedia kerrr???perghhh...cuak2...
hhmm...x sabar nak balik alex balik...nak negotiate and compensate komponen2 otak aku yg dah lama rosak dan terbengkalai....isyh3..tiap malam mimpi alex...ngeh3..
cakap leh ar kan...tp bese ar....buat ke x tu yg x berapa nak sure...isyh3..
rasa cam nak upah tukang penampar je...yela,tiap kali aku lupa and malas2...ade org kasi sebiji...baru terurus diri nih...
aku pon harap2...balik2 alex ni...nak buang sikit sumthing...ngeh3...bnda yg x penting...campak jauh2 lam laut...kasi ringan sikit....
so tema idop kalini...tema je la....belom buat lg...iA bakal....
satu jasad.satu jiwa.satu keutamaan
lolz...
harap2 dapat dilaksanakan...kemudi perahu sorang...lanun mana nak serang...lawan sorang2 gak...haha
haa...and aku suka kata2 bernard chandran baru2 nih...

IDENTIFY UR STRENGTH. BELIEVE IN UR STRENGTH. WORK IN UR STRENGTH.

yeah!!kasi goreng abeh year2 yg tinggal nih!!...

full of hope...

farhanah mohamad



Sunday, 20 February 2011

bronze.silver.gold


to be loved by someone is something


to be loved by someone that i love is exciting


to be loved by Allah is EVERYTHING

Thursday, 17 February 2011

an apple a day doesn't keep your femur unbroken...


ssshhh...duduk senyap-senyap....
jangan lari..jangan jerit....
tuan tak mahu diganggu...dia sangat-sangat letih...
kesian..

dang!!

ouch!...siapa suruh kau main kejar-kejar....?
sekarang mana ada farmasi buka malam nih..
ni luka ni siapa nak balut...haih...dalam juga ni...
tapi....ssshhhh....jangan nangis...tuan tak boleh tahu...tuan sangat-sangat letih....
kesian..

ouch!
rasanya femur kau patah laa...
tak boleh jadi nih...jom3...kita gi x ray ...
waaaaaaaaaaa.....
*retak seribu*
parah~

mesti sakitkan?.....=(
kalini tuan dah terdengar kau jerit...sakit!

.........................................

"salam..."
tuan datang memberi salam....
"kenapa ni ....?"
"kasihan aku lihat kau begini"
"asyik-asyik jatuh....tak sakit ke?"

.........................................

akhirnya malam ni....tuan ambil cuti nak temankan kau...
sama-sama tuan berjaga malam sebab kau jatuh punya pasal...
tuan berkata.....
"lain kali bagi tahu la saya...nape nak sorok-sorok?..."
"saya sanggup tanggung sekali apa yang kau rasa nih"
"sebab kita adalah satu"
"antara orang yang kau tak boleh selindung2 ni adalah dengan aku"
"kau tak boleh tipu aku"
"kau tak boleh nafikan apa2 pon dari aku"

.........................................

pelita terpadam~
gelita sebentar....tunggu matahari esok.....

lepas ni jangan main kejar2 lagi....jatuh nanti kena plaster...susah2...

terima kasih tuan!temankan sehingga aku sembuh...
tapi tak jamin kalau2 aku cakap aku tak main kejar2 lagi dan terjatuh...
=)


Wednesday, 16 February 2011

bumi itu berubah


asal mulanya bumi ini adalah hijau dan rapi
tiada anak Adam yang datang ke sebatang pohon kecuali dia dapatkan buahnya dia atas pohon itu
dan air laut adalah tawar segar
harimau tidak memangsa sapi
anjing hutan pula tidak memangsa kambing

maka...tatkala Qabil membunuh Habil...
bumi menjadi tidak rata
pohon pohon jadi berduri..
bumi menjadi hitam..
air laut menjadi masin...

p/s:setiap perubahan ade kisah disebaliknya...same goes to human being..

Monday, 14 February 2011

winning is not everything


shoot for the moon. even if you miss, you'll land among the stars.



winning isn't everything, but the will to win is everything.

endurance~

p/s:haha,worth it la balik msia...boleh sunburning sama2...btw well done bro!

Tuesday, 25 January 2011

dear....dear....dear...


sometimes...i hardly try to understand people around me...
in front of me...you are such an adorable cat...
behind me...you are just .....urghhh...judge urself baby...=)

OR

may be my intergrative part of my brain...just not working...
how can i......intergrate such what i see and what's on reality...
hoho...pathetic..!

you so....unreal....so absurd.....so so so...urghhhh

but....judging it not my job nor you baby...
its Allah's..

p/s:do you have your own skin?

Sunday, 23 January 2011

fly solo


paging for miss farhanah
paging for miss farhanah
...........................

ouch..another missed flight!
for the whole life i booked the ticket...
then i missed the flight again..and again..and again..

today...

paging for miss farhanah...
but they will keep on paging me...
paging for miss farhanah....
please go the the departure gate right now..
paging for miss farhanah....

.:check in:.

overload!

so...i need to unload those unecessary things in my luggage..
ok..

.:at the gate:.

yes!this is it...!

a plane
no pilot
no stewardessss
a right destination...

and i'm gonna fly solo...

=)

Thursday, 20 January 2011

i was a boy


i was a boy....walk and strut arrogantly
i put my face up and say nothing can beat me up
even the hurricane is just the weakest breath of mine
i said ...nothing can put me out of line
nothing can struck me even at the strongest point of me...
i was a boy....i believe in my machinery heart....i regulate it with all my power...
but i forgot...it's not mine at all..
once....
i'm not that strong boy anymore...
my strongest part become the weakest...
today i'm so .........i can't even look up
even the lightest touch of breeze seems so painful...
if once upon ago...i can run even in the missing tract...
but now ....i stumbled everytime i want to give up...

get up girl!
yes...i can do this....

wake up girl!
yes...i can face this...

don' give up girl
yes...i'm a warrior to be

be strong girl!
yes...strive hardly

keep on rocking girl!
yes...just roar and soar..!

cheer up girl!
yes...as my name is......

.:FARHANAH:.

so...the days left for me...i'll move on as a woman...
everything gonna be fine...because i trust Him so much
and i dont need to be a boy to be strong...
=)

Thursday, 13 January 2011

=)


“There are two ways to live: you can live as if nothing is a miracle; you can live as if everything is a miracle.”

=)