Friday, 30 November 2012

Dear friend...
i'm sorry for being harsh
i'm sorry for loving you not like the way you wish
i'm sorry because i'm not a good friend
i'm sorry for all the patience you had beared
and today you just touch my heart so deeply
and my soul has a reason to smile today
thank you so much
p/s: my friend dunya wal akhirah insya Allah :)

thank you prescribe ubat tu..suke2 :)

Monday, 26 November 2012

Thursday, 15 November 2012

my lateral spinothalamic pathway

satu hari apabila berjalan seorang diri di satu lorong yang sangat gelap.
samar-samar terlihat satu bayangan muncul dari kabus tebal menutup bintang-bintang malam
jantung kencang tatkala diacu bilah tajam tepat ke arah jantung
dalam fikiranku,sakit yang teramat apabila bilah itu ditusuk sedalam-dalamnya
apabila aku sedarkan diri,aku bertanya apa yang terjadi pada hakikatnya
kenapa aku di sini dan kenapa ada parut kesan tikaman pada tubuhku
2 tahun kemudian..
ketika memasak untuk sarapan pagi bersama yang tersayang
"mama...kenapa mama hiris jari mama sekali dengan sayur-sayur itu"
lihat pada tab sinki..ya Allah..darah mengalir seperti pili air terbuka dan lupa ditutup
kenapa aku tak rasa sakit 
kenapa aku masih tersenyum
"sayang,mama tak rasa sakit sebab mama pernah rasa sakit yang betul-betul menyakitkan suatu hari dahulu..dan mematikan segala saraf-saraf untuk menerima kesakitan-kesakitan kecil yang akan datang"

memang jantungku tidak seperti dahulu
tetapi aku tak rasa sakit lagi 
meneruskan hidup tanpa rasa sakit
dan tak rasa takut lagi

for what that make me scared in my life
is actually a gift for me to walk for another miles further
it's inoculated deeply inside the soul
and make me strong like i was before :)

"The secret of success is learning how to use pain and pleasure instead of having pain and pleasure use you.
 If you do that, you're in control of your life. 
If you don't, life controls you."
and the most important..

faith in God is a concept by which we measure our pain..=)


Sunday, 11 November 2012

last drop :)

"but you may hate a thing although that is good for you, 
and can be you love a thing which is bad for you
Allah knows,you don't know"

Allah..please don't take this pain away
if it's the only way to gain Your love
then i will bear it

wholeheartedly :)

Friday, 9 November 2012

and the rain falls with me

for what i have to go to sleep
if there are no sweetdreams..

until i find rainbow beyond those cystal drops
slowly it will take me back there

  once upon a time..i asked someone..

"Spirit tu datang dari mana?"

and he answered

"it comes from ur heart"
"May be a drop of ur tears"
"Will be a light of spirit"

masih ingat lagi?


every little strength comes from weakness

shout and whisper

they are the same words but have two different ends

take care dear vocal cords


Friday, 2 November 2012


exam around the corner..yeay :|

anyhow..dear brain..please be nice.. :P
it's not the time to give up..not yet
even..well..i'm not really passionate in gynaecology and obstetrics..but still i have to try my best kan..
who knows one day surprisingly i become head of obgyn like Dato' Siva :P :P
haha :|
competing era had's about something else :)
hold on..move on

read..and read and read..
and be happy ^_^

never too late kan..lantak pi lah orang nak cakap apa..

wekkkk :P

Thursday, 1 November 2012

my ramora

sometimes i knew it was fake
but i don't care as long as it's a happy day for me..
even it will not lasts..

sometimes i smiled upon lies
i knew it wasn't for real but it tastes like sugar

well..this is life
like you taste some honey with those closed eyes